Words have the power to create a beautiful universe for our kids or totally destroy their perceptions of themselves and their world. I remember the hurtful words of my father as he berated me saying that I could never do anything right.
Verbal abuse damages a child’s confidence and self-esteem
Struggling To Cope
As an 11-year-old still struggling to come to grips with my mother’s death, trying to be independent and fill the shoes of my mother, cooking, cleaning, maintaining the house plus coping with my schooling plus being sexually abused, everything was so overwhelming. Instead of being encouraged and supported for doing my best, my father would tear me down with his hurtful words.
Most painful were his threats that throw us out of the house and we would have to fend for ourselves, it was so frightening.
Now in retrospect maybe he did not mean what he said and did not carry out his threat but as a child, I had no way of knowing and understanding that my father was just letting off steam.
Verbal Abuse Damages The Brain
However, at those times hearing my father let out wrathful tirades would make me want to crawl into a deep dark hole and never wake up. Psychologist R. Douglas Fields explains how verbal abuse in childhood inflicts lasting physical effects on the brain structure.
“Emotional abuse systematically brainwashes a victim’s self-confidence, sense of self-worth, trust in their own perceptions, and self-concept. Whether it is done by constant berating and belittling, by intimidating, or under the guise of ‘guidance,’ ‘teaching,’ or ‘advice,’ the results are similar.
Eventually, the recipient of the abuse loses all sense of self and remnants of personal value. Emotional abuse cuts to the very core of a person, creating scars that may be far deeper and more lasting than physical ones.”
Being subjected to words that insult, hurt, ridicule, and humiliate cause deep psychic injury. Moreover, when it is delivered in childhood by a child’s parents and close family it causes lasting emotional trauma. It drives a person to constantly seek approval and validation. It makes one a ‘people pleaser‘, unable to say ‘No’ and maintain healthy boundaries. One tends to neglect one’s own needs thinking one is not good enough.
Damaged Sense Of Self
When one’s sense of self is so badly damaged, the voice we hear is the taunts, insults, and demeaning words. It took me over 30 years to finally banish that evil monster in my head, trying to pull me down.
Tragically, being verbally mauled by the people who are supposed to care about you is that you subconsciously begin to internalize the message, I AM BAD. You don’t have the maturity of verbal expression to counter the insults.
I recollect how I’d recoil when the first words Uncle Mean would hurl at me when he saw me, “How dirty you are? What a dirty dress you are wearing! Your hands are like a man?” I can’t remember him saying one nice thing to me.
Connection In The Brain Broken
Even though the thoughts raced through my head, to try and defend, and explain my condition ’My mother is dead, there is no one who gives a damn about me.’ I was unable to counter those cruel words.
Research has proved that verbal abuse destroys the corpus callosum. The corpus callosum is the bundle of nerves that connects the two sides and integrates the emotional and cognitive aspects of our existence.
The connection between the right side of the brain (the emotional part) and the left side of the brain ( the language part) gets affected when one is subjected to abuse. Coherent narratives about the past require both left and right hemispheres to be fully online. The right side holds the images, themes, and sense of personal existence across time, while the left holds the drive to make logical meaning and put words to wordless feelings states, and perceptions.
Healing Through Expressing My Emotions
For me healing from verbal abuse has been to start expressing myself verbally, and writing my story through my blog. Listening to guided meditations has helped overwrite the negative brainwashing with positive affirmations.
When I get up I try to think and say positive things to myself. Of course, it helps to surround yourself with kind, positive people. Avoid negative situations and stay far away from evil people.
Listening to healing songs and meditations helps to overcome a negative mindset
How true the lyrics of Rachel Platten’s Fight Song are “Like how a single word, Can make a heart open”.
As parents let us be mindful of every word we utter. Words have the power to create happy children or destroy them forever.
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